Blurring The Edges

Meredith Brooks




Bitch

I hate the world today, your so good to me
I know but I can't change
Tried to tell you, but you look at me like
Maybe I'm an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet, yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you can be confused, I don't envy you
I'm a little bit of everything all rolled into one
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean you'll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I'm going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change and today won't mean a thing
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
Just when you think you've got me figured out
The season is already changing
I think it's cool you do what you do
And don't try to save me
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When your hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way







Shatter

Prick of the pin, no blood on me
I've been tested, total wasted and too deep
To the zone I retreat
What doesn't kill you makes you strong eventually
Blade to my skin, blurring the edge
Seven doves are waiting for me up ahead
I just breathe in, I just breathe out
I've taken every hairpin curve by now
I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack but it doesn't matter
I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack
Promise the world, dropped in a pool
Was it fun? Did you enjoy acting so cool?
Here's the thing, still have my head
I stumbled hard but I'm not sleeping in your bed
Saved by the son, no shame on me
Come out screaming, it's the only time we're free
I just breathe out, I just breathe in
I'd ride the wave until I come again
I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack but it doesn't matter
I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack but I'll never shatter
Cause I still have a secret
In the dark I keep it closed
I still have a secret no one knows
I may crack but I'll never shatter
Destiny wasted over and over
I may crack but it doesn't matter
In the darkness I won't shatter
Shake down just did in time
It's amazing that I still
I just breathe in, I just breathe out
I may crack but I'll never shatter
Cause I still have a secret
In the dark I keep it closed
I still have a secret no one knows
In the dark I keep it closed
I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack but I'll never shatter
I may crack





Pollyanne

Here we go again same old argument
You're calling me Miss Pollyanne
You see the world as cruel, and being mad is cool
You think that I don't give a damn
Ya don't have to shout to be heard
Who said dark is deep? You'd rather flip the bird
I'd rather show ya signs of peace
Love ain't a dying art as far as I can see
Oh, sentimental me
Fist up in the air, mine used to be up there
You only give yourself away
So paint your roses black and blue
Use the fuck word I can too
When I have nothing else to say
Ya don't have to shout to be heard
Who said dark is deep? You'd rather flip the bird
I'd rather show ya signs of peace
Love ain't a dying art as far as I can see
Oh, sentimental me
Sentimental me
Ya don't have to shout to be heard
Who said dark is deep? You'd rather flip the bird
I'd rather show ya signs of peace
Love ain't a dying art as far as I can see
Oh, sentimental me
Sentimental me, sentimental me
Here we go again, we may never change
So you can call me Pollyanne







What Would Happen

Electricity, eye to eye
Hey do I know you? I can't speak
Stripped my senses on the spot
I've never been defenseless
I can't even make sense of this
You speak and I don't hear a word
What would happen if we kissed?
Would your tongue slip past my lips?
Would you run away? Would you stay?
Or would I melt into you?
Mouth to mouth, lust to lust
Spontaneously combust
The room is spinning out of control
You act like you didn't notice, brushed my hand
Forbidden fruit, ring on my finger
Your such a moral moral man
Would you throw it away? A question
Will I pretend I'm innocent?
What would happen if we kissed?
Would your tongue slip past my lips?
Would you run away? Would you stay?
Or would I melt into you?
Mouth to mouth, lust to lust
Spontaneously combust
What would happen if we kissed?
I struggle with myself again
Quickly the walls are crumbling
Don't know if I can turn away
What would happen if we kissed?
Would your tongue slip past my lips?
Would you run away? Would you stay?
Or would I melt into you?
Mouth to mouth
Would your tongue slip past my lips?
Would you run away? Would you stay?
Or would I melt into you?
Mouth to mouth
If we kissed
If we kissed

The Planet Of New Orleans
Dire Straits

Standin' in the corner
Of toulouse and dauphine
Waitin' on marie-ondine
I'm tryin' to place a tune
Under a louisiana moonbeam
On the planet of New Orleans
In a bar they call the saturn
And in her eyes of green
And somethin' that she said in a dream
Inside of my suit I got my mojo root
And a true love figurine
For the planet of new orleans


New Orleans - the other planet
With other life upon it
And everythin' that's shakin' in between
If you should ever land upon it
You better know what's on it
The planet of New Orleans


Now I'm tryin' to find my way
Through the rain and the steam
I'm lookin' straight ahead through the screen
And then I heard her say
Somethin' in the limousine
'bout taking a ride across the planet of New Orleans


If she was an ace
And I was just a jack
And the cards were never seen
We could have been the king and the queen
But she took me back to her courtyard
Where magnolia perfume screams
Behind the gates and the granite
Of the planet of New Orleans



***






You And Your Friend
Dire Straits


will you and your friend come around
are you and your friend gonna get on down
will you and your friend come around
or are you and your friend gonna let me down

if you talk to one another
I'm a hungry man
let me know one way or the other
so I can make my plans

will you and your friend come around
are you and your friend gonna get on down
will you and your friend come around
or are you and your friend gonna let me down

I relive the situation
still see in in my mind
you got my imagination
working overtime

Red Hot Chili Peppers
under the bridge

Sometimes I feel like
I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel like
My only friend
Is the city I live inthe city of angels?
As lonely as I am, together we cry

I drive on the streets cuz
shes my companion
I walk through the hills cuz
She knows who I am
She sees my good deeds and
She kisses the wind and
I never worry
now that is a lie

I dont ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
I dont ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way

Its hard to believe that
Theres nobody out there
Its hard to believe
That I'm all alone
At least I have heard her
The city she loves me
As lonely as I am, together we cry

I dont ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way
I dont ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way, yeah

wanna waste ur time?(save targets ass...)

اون ragdoll ِ بوس favorite خودمه با اجازه جناب ماین سویپر(به رکورد به صورت نامحسوس به تصویر کشیده شده نیز خیلی ناخودآگاه دقت کنید !)
اون یکیش رو هم ایشون معرفی کردند.

داستان بامداد بیست و چهارم آذر ماه

اگر ازمن بپرسید با آنکه نمیدانم اما جوابم مثبت است . ولی با تمام نادانی و لجاجتی که می توان در چشمان یک دختر شانزده ساله پیدا کرد قاطعانه گفت :نــه !!!
در کنار جدول بزرگراه نشسته بودیم انگار که از سرما مچاله شده باشیم و کامیون ها رد می شدند . کامیون ها بزرگ بودند ازسر پیچ که فاصله چندانی هم نداشت ناگهان با آن چراغ های بزرگ که مانند چشمان یک...کامیون ها مثل غول بودند . ما کنار هم بودیم ، تنها و آن سوی بزرگراه سطل آشغال بزرگ و زرد رنگی در نور ماشین ها خاموش و روشن می شد .
گفت نـه ! و بیخیال از سوال من دستانش را نشان داد و ادامه داد که دستانش را یکبار با دستان یک رفتگر مقایسه کرده و خیلی کوچک تر بوده . سپس دست هایش را به رفتگر نشان داده و وقتی او می خواسته دستهایش را بگیرد تا دم در خانه دویده است .
نمی دانم اما کهنگی خاصی در موهای مشکی اش بود آنهم برای دختری با این سن و سال کم، اصلا نمی فهمم در این تاریکی چهره را نمی توان تشخیص داد بعد من گیرداده ام که مو هایش کهنه است!!!( البته ماشین ها که رد می شدند گاها موهایش به خصوص آن چند تار مویی که روی صورتش ریخته بود با جلوه ای متفاوت می درخشیدند .)
می گفت : میدانستم که زمستان ها وقتی پدر ماشینش را در پارکینگ می گذاشته گربه سیاه سفیدشان ( گفت که گربه اسم نداشته و یک روز هم که خواسته برایش اسم بگذارد چیزی به ذهنش نرسیده.) میرفته و زیر ماشین دراز می کشیده . با یک هیجان خاصی هم کش آمدن و دراز کشیدن گربه ها را توضیح می داد. می گفت یک شب پدر حوالی ساعت 1 به خانه برگشت و با آنکه دیروقت بوده هوس می کند گربه را ببیند .می گفت هرچه تلاش کرده نتوانسته مقاومت کند و با هزار بدبختی آرام در را باز کرده و رفته پایین به سمت پارکینگ اما به آنجاکه رسیده دیده پسر همسایه ایستاده و دارد سیگار می کشد و با ناراحتی خیلی سریع برگشته . اینطور که می گفت خیلی اعصابش خورد شده بود و ادامه حرف هایش در هیاهوی چند کامیون گم شد ....و اینکه تقریبا بدترین خاطره کل عمرش !!! می باشد. من هم گفتم اوه !
که گفت نه ! یک دفعه رفنه بوده خانه خاله اش ...
اگر او از من می پرسید من می گفتم نه؟
نه من نه نمی گفتم اما خب زندگی آدم ها با آدم ها فرق می کند. چیز هایی که دیده اند یا شنیده اند . شاید من احساس می کنم چیزی را ازدست می دهم و او اینطور فکر نمی کند و شاید برایش مهم نیس نمی دانم .
می گفت با پسر خاله اش کنار پنجره سیگار می کشیده که دستشان می خورد به گلدان و گلدان می افتد پایین در کوچه .و همه برگشته بودند و به بالا نگاه می کردند که پسرخاله اش دستش را گرفته و او را از پشت پنجره دور کرده . در عین حال کمی سینه اش را خیلی ناشیانه دستمالی کرده بود.بعد هردو ساکت شده بودند و این سکوت یکجوری بوده که او احساس خیلی بدی کرده است ، خودش می گفت احساس خفگی .
و احساس می کرده هنوز هم آدمهای کوچه دارند سکوتشان را تماشا می کنند!
ماشین ها هنوز هم رد می شدند و من فکر می کردم که من هم یک روزی همین طور قاطعانه جواب سوال ها را می دادم . نفهمیدم که کی خمیازه و کش و قوس لب و لوچه به هنگام جواب دادن عادت شد.
گفت که چشم هایم را ببندم و خیلی سریع از بزرگ راه رد شوم . می گفت اگر خیلی تند بدویی بعید است با ماشین ها تصادف کنی .نزدیک پیچ بود و ماشین ها خیلی سریع با آن چراغ هاشان دیده می شدند و هنوز لحظه ای نگذشته از کنارت رد شده بودند . هنوز من و من می کردم که چشمانش را بست و ودوید سمت بزرگراه.
من با تمام بهت شاهد بودم که ظرف مدتی کوتاه به آن سوی بزرگ راه رسید و آن طرف پایش به جدول گیر کرد و به زمین خورد. آمدم به آن سمت بروم . ماشین ها و کامیون ها امان نمی دادند .یکی پس دیگری. وقتی به آن سمت رسیدم اثری از دختر نبود .
نگاهی به دست هایم کردم . چند تکه کاغذ مچاله روی زمین افتاده بود و در امتداد بزرگراه ، سطل اشغال های زرد رنگی که در عبور نور ماشین ها روشن و خاموش می شدند .

Skip divided
Thom yorke


I'm in a skip divided malfunction
I flap around and dive bomb
Frantically around your light
Enveloped in a sad distraction
I got your voice repeating endlessly
Could you guide me in?
Could you smother me?

I swoop around your head
But I never hit
I'm blinded by your daylight
Electric veins pass through me
I thought there was this big connection
I only got my name I only got the situation
I just need a number and location
Without appropriate papers or permissions
I'm known to bite in tight situations
And I head into your french windows
I thought there was a big connection
I only got my name I only got my situation
I just need my number and location

And my mum keeps telling me
Hey hey hey hey hey hey
The devil may
Hey hey hey hey hey hey
You are a fool [x2]
For sticking round [x2]
Yeah you are a fool [x2]
For sticking round [x2]
I tried every trick in the book
I tried to look and knew
Every trick in the book
But how come I look?

No more common dress or elliptical caress
Don't look into your eyes cause I'm desperately in love
In love
When you walk in the room everything disappears
When you walk in the room it's a terrible mess
When you walk in the room I start to melt
When you walk in the room I follow you round
Like a dog, I'm a dog, I'm a dog, I'm a lapdog
I'm your lapdog, yeah
I just got a number and location
I just need my number and location

Syd Barret
Word song

Stained, glaucous, glycerine, gold,goat, clover
Gold, local stocks, type, food, wild, national, lake, flag
Valve, gyroscope, sect
Heat, helium, lead, bare, state, invention, medieval
Refraction, faction, ultra-action
Hunter, interest, bullet, market..

Loads, liquids, neon, heater, jaws, jungle
Mains, signal, knives, kitchen
Ingot, lovely, mirror, mold
Mycenaean, moat, poppy, rubber
Radar, rags, sugar, teak
Silver, poke, tin, beetroot
Carrott, ebony, fruit, copper, silk..

Carpet, distant, pigmy, hid, pack
Timber, pudding, straw
Raindrops, spattering, ramps
Chameleon, prairie, pods, trigger
Museum, scales, square, ultra, out of map, vent
Volcano, vain, wreck, tactic
Tidal, arches, valley, hand
Inflect, impression, loom, last, molten
You gamma, meeting
Lighting, signal, island, coral-cold

[[....Rooftop in a thunderstorm row missing the point

With yellow, red and roomy food, and quivered
Crouching on a golden cushion
Undressed himself to disappear
Through an infinity of pleasure
And smiled to free the running me
With "am I my brother's keeper?"
His meek hand on devils gloves
Shaping running blood

The prohecy, to ricreate the truth
In visions of a seasonal mood
In truth, the only sight he saw
Lay hidden in the bathroom door
And spat on the rug
As high is high, so low is low
And that's the end of it. -
....]

Boop Boop Be Do Yeah!

The sun sets across the ocean
I'm a thousand miles from anywhere
A pocketbook and my heart
Both just got stolen
And that sun act like she don't even care
Wind blows cold when you reach the top
It feels like someone's face is stuck to the bottom of my shoe
I got a plastic Jesus and a cordless telephone for every corner of my room
Everybody but you telling me what to do


Well I've been down so long
Oh it can't be longer still
And I've been down for so long
That the end must be drawing near


I looked to everybody but me
To answer my prayers
Til I saw an angel in the bathroom
Who said she saw no one worth saving anywhere
And the blind man on the corner said
"It's Simple, like flipping a coin
Don't matter what side it lands on
It's someone else's dime"


Well I've been down so long
Oh It can't be longer still
And I've been down so long
That the end must be drawing near


I take a trip
I catch a train
I catch a plane
Got a ticket in my hand
And then a fat man takes my money
And like cattle we all stand


We've been down so long
Oh it can't be longer still
We've been down so long
That the end must be
I know the end must be
Oh I know the end
Must be drawing near

امشب را امر فرمودیم
طول بکشد که کشید
دیگر خسبمان می آید که می آید...

مشرف می گردیم به وادی کپپه ی مرگ.

تبلیغات جدید مبنی بر
گام های محال را بیخیال
زندگی در خیال را بچسب ...
و کوفت های مشابه را دیده اید...

پیف

اصولا مرز مشخصی ندارد
هیچ چیز

همان درخت هایی که پشت را می خاراند یا بوته هایی که در خنکای نسیم مهماندار عطر شاش توست .
تمام تپه هایی که من ریدم .

می فهمی که؟

شیوه نامه هایه من مخصوص خودم طراحی شده

دون بی کرووول
جان تو این حق مسلم ماس

چه کسی بیدار مانده با چشمانی اینچنین گستاخ
(و در ادامه)

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